Unexpected Encounter

“Our embrace lasted too long. 
Now I am waiting 
till you leave, till 
the clatter of your shoes 
is heard no more. Now, silence”

Meeting you at the most unexpected places, catching your glimpses where I lease expect it and hearing your voice when I don’t want to. All these just seems like signs from God or just regular pattern. Seems like each time I decide to get over you, you cross my path!

I just can’t forget meeting you at the airport, I don’t understand why you have so much influence on me. I am now with someone else but I still can’t stop thinking about you!

I don’t discuss about you anymore, I no longer have any photographs of yours; it killed me inside to let go of all your materialistic thing including the ring you gave me! Irony is how should burn your memories in my head?

Each time I see you, I see US! I see how we used to be, how people always envied us, how we were so happy in each other.

All I have now are regrets! Wish I could turn back time and be with you. Miss you always Ashu!

 

 

Just wanna spend my life with you…!

I feel crazy and find myself alone every-time I hear this song.

I so wish once again I could re-live those beautiful moments with you

They are live in-front of my eyes,

“What have you done to me, Is this what I was meant to be…?”

I still want you, haven’t changed a bit

Why did you?

You used to say in love, there is no logic, no right or wrong as long as two people want to be together…

I know I got lost in between but I am here now…always was…just was trying to keep you safe..

What is stopping you?

Why can’t you forget everything else?

Why can’t you think about yourself?

You know this, no one can love you the way I did and do!

No one can take care of you, like you deserve to be taken care of..

You are precious, please let me be with you, let me take care of you, just let me love you all over again…

I am here always with open arms…

I will be right here waiting for you…

Whatever it takes or how many times my heart breaks…

I will be right here waiting for you!

 

Nostalgia

 

Do you remember November 28, 2011? The day my life changed and there has been no looking back ever since! Each year I make it possible to come and see you, even if it’s a glimpse, just to find a reason to live my life with happiness and enthusiasm for another year!

I used to pray for us to be alone, because I envisioned that we’d never run out of things to say. We were both such freaks, such word addicts, so similar yet different.
But on that day, the last day as far as I’m concerned, we sat in a room full of goodbyes and leavings, as filled with last-minute emotion as it could possibly be, and found nothing, nothing on earth, to say. I kept looking at you, and found so many questions written over your face that I did not had the courage to answer it. You just kept looking at me as if saying you are making the biggest mistake of your life by letting me go…and it was so true.

As I stood staring at you today, it felt like all of it came alive infront of my eyes, your crazy talks, your laughter, your tease, your cute smile, your stubbornness, your love, your kindness, your simplicity like a small kid, your forever cravings for chocolates and Pizza’s, your cute fights, your tears, your embrace, you always being there for me.

Today again I wish you all the happiness in life. Stay the way you are!

 

 

Where do I go?

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Where do I go?
When I’m feeling so lost and I don’t want to be found.
When I’m looking and listening for that peace in my heart.
But I know I’ll never hear that sound.
Where do I go?
Where do I go when I’m trying to laugh but all I can do I cry?
I’m trying to keep on living because I’m not ready to die.
Where do I go because the sun never seems to shine?
Can you give me my life back it’s not yours it’s mine?
How do I keep going, how do I fight this fight?
I’m tired of feeling beat down, but I’m trying with all my might!
Where do I go when my head hangs so low?
Please give me an answer because I just don’t know!
Where do I go?
Does it take very long?
For me to find that peace and a place where I belong.
I need you to help me, help me to take a stand.
I’m scared to do it by myself, will you please take my hand?
Where do I go? Where do I go? Where do I go?
Do you know?

Source: https://www.familyfriendpoems.com/poem/where-to-go-for-help

The encounter

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Wow! you still look as adorable and innocent as you used to earlier.

I am delusional or was it true? You looked at me the same way that you did years ago, as if nothing has changed?
Each time I see you, I realize there is nobody else I would rather be with. I would choose you again, and again and yet again. If there is life after this, I would choose you there too.

You have no idea how you’ve changed my life. I used to feel so alone and afraid in this world. I didn’t believe I could find someone who could truly love me for who I am. I never thought that I could find that one person who can revive my faith in everything. And yet here you are, the pillar of strength that keeps me going, the light that guides me towards a better future. You can’t imagine how much of an impact you’ve made in my life.

What we had together was unique. It was a special bond that was strong and unbreakable.  I have this faith in me that someday I will have what I lost and you would be mine forever!!

 

 

 

Faint memories of my closest friend!

The word Nostalgia does not count…sometimes they walk with you…always..in your memory lane!

I met her when I was in high school…a cute looking girl, well what’s unique about that? It was the way she looked at me, as if she was telling me, I am the one you will fall deeply, madly in love with! My brain then said..“shut up! She is no special.”

But I was wrong! She instantly made me feel like, I knew her from long back, no show-off, no playing games, no tantrums. She was always herself,  as if her head and heart always told her the same thing!

From a ‘new girl’ at school to ‘my friend’ to ‘my best friend’ to ‘my lover’ to ‘my soul mate’, this journey was so special, so unique, so beautiful.

We fell apart several times in life, we broke up, we made up, we got engaged, we dreamed of a happy life..together!

But none of this happened, she is no longer mine, she is happily married!

 

I moved on with life to along with her memories, with just one hope..to be her friend once more sometime in life again!

Because she is way special then I had imagined…!

 

Memories of you…Ashu

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Taking in the joy of your eyes at my sight
Seeing your smile and watching it as it glows in the night
Waking everyday wanting to see you
Wanting to hold you and never let go
Hoping that when I open my eyes your all that it shows
Thinking that when our eyes take in each others sight
That you would want me as much I wanted you
Telling myself that when I’m gone you would think of me too
But my one mistake, left me to burn
My heart turned into ashes left to be blown
By the wind of your walk that left me to be torn!

Now all I have left are memories of you and I fail to understand what is it that still binds me to you? Why even after so many years I am still held back at the same moment of time?

You clearly moved on with your life, didn’t even tried to look back at me and here I am with faint hope each day that you will come back, you will come back to me!

I know I am the worst possible version of a friend who should be happy with your happiness but guess my love for you over powers it all and is beyond my control!